Thursday, February 28, 2008

deafening cries

I keep wondering what the hell my life has been experiencing since yesterday. I left office with mind bogged down under the loads of sheer disgust. But still I would admit being coming out of a traumatic confrontation of egos at the office. Where your boss keeps yelling n one has to listen to those barked out pieces. Nonetheless I would confess my confidence was callously hit upon. Completely shaken up, even my knees were trembling. A shiver ran down my spine after all my concepts were defied by that cruel dictator. All my concepts were jolt fully ignored in an instant. Being asked to give lectures on induction machines, I can speak out loud for long without getting drained out. But at that very instant, I felt as if I had run out of ideas. I was not wrong but he was rather not prepared to accept that others too know the cracks.

Hmmmmm, what else to be script down now. I never like talking about my office work once being at home. Probably my wife would simply love me for this reason. It really brings back all the agony that I had faced all day. Mind is left totally dried up as if pledging for peace.
PLEASE MUJHE SHAANTII CHAHIYE..

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

deafening cries

I keep wondering what the hell my life has been experiencing since yesterday. I left office with mind bogged down under the loads of sheer disgust. But still I would admit being coming out of a traumatic confrontation of egos at the office. Where your boss keeps yelling n one has to listen to those barked out pieces. Nonetheless I would confess my confidence was callously hit upon. Completely shaken up, even my knees were trembling. A shiver ran down my spine after all my concepts were defied by that cruel dictator. All my concepts were jolt fully ignored in an instant. Being asked to give lectures on induction machines, I can speak out loud for long without getting drained out. But at that very instant, I felt as if I had run out of ideas. I was not wrong but he was rather not prepared to accept that others too know the cracks.

Hmmmmm, what else to be script down now. I never like talking about my office work once being at home. Probably my wife would simply love me for this reason. It really brings back all the agony that I had faced all day. Mind is left totally dried up as if pledging for peace.
PLEASE MUJHE SHAANTII CHAHIYE..

miss transformer..

Being under the scrutiny of my bosses, yet my mind is rendering over another beautiful girl. Why she always keeps arguing over the divine beauty n outer glittering sparkles. Always keeps me on bay and I’m feeling as if being cheated. Though it is never the actual imprint, but still I feel disappointed why I cannot convince her over the simplest of things. Either she doesn’t let her heart being pulled out by the grieved thoughts of others or she actually knows everything.

Yet, my time runs as if being controlled by some dc series machine, keeps galloping at a very fast pace. Keeps saying all those sluggish slang, which sometimes I’m hearing for the first time. Though she portrays herself being simply revealed, which is rather true. I admit I’m not so affluent in using those hard one-liners still I hook them sometimes. She keeps confessing about the only shortcoming she knows about her. I have tried to explain her innumerable counts, but naa, she never understands me. I’ve never felt so low as being in her shoes for which she complains. Though shoemaker is none other than herself only. She complains about those things that actually have nothing to do in this psychic world.

She can laugh endlessly n can do the flip too with the same intensity. I wonder what actually these words depicts. These three words are all, her English diction contains: lolz, hehe, dud. Rest, which she always use for me, are pagal, dumb, dumbo, once idiot bhi, she used. Do she really mean what she says or just another own crafted dictionary of her. Nonetheless, I never mean when she uses such adjectives for me. Being frank I am quite used to it now.

She sprang to her feet at every single moment that contains even a drop of adventure. How one can be so energetic. Probably that is the sole reason to me, she reminds me of transformer. Quite unorthodox n unworthy, transformers can’t live. But she’s so full of life, one has to look down before going to her. Though never such a feeling had come to me since the day I know myself that I’m a boring guy or not so hilarious. Accompanying her on a chatting visit can make you left alone in deep dug turmoil. At the end of the day, you may leave gasping for fresh air with an impeccable imprint on your heart, how a person can talk such serious things under the most hilarious moods. No one can do that, but she did it.
THAT IS TRANSFORMER FOR ME….

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

miss transformer..

Being under the scrutiny of my bosses, yet my mind is rendering over another beautiful girl. Why she always keeps arguing over the divine beauty n outer glittering sparkles. Always keeps me on bay and I’m feeling as if being cheated. Though it is never the actual imprint, but still I feel disappointed why I cannot convince her over the simplest of things. Either she doesn’t let her heart being pulled out by the grieved thoughts of others or she actually knows everything.

Yet, my time runs as if being controlled by some dc series machine, keeps galloping at a very fast pace. Keeps saying all those sluggish slang, which sometimes I’m hearing for the first time. Though she portrays herself being simply revealed, which is rather true. I admit I’m not so affluent in using those hard one-liners still I hook them sometimes. She keeps confessing about the only shortcoming she knows about her. I have tried to explain her innumerable counts, but naa, she never understands me. I’ve never felt so low as being in her shoes for which she complains. Though shoemaker is none other than herself only. She complains about those things that actually have nothing to do in this psychic world.

She can laugh endlessly n can do the flip too with the same intensity. I wonder what actually these words depicts. These three words are all, her English diction contains: lolz, hehe, dud. Rest, which she always use for me, are pagal, dumb, dumbo, once idiot bhi, she used. Do she really mean what she says or just another own crafted dictionary of her. Nonetheless, I never mean when she uses such adjectives for me. Being frank I am quite used to it now.

She sprang to her feet at every single moment that contains even a drop of adventure. How one can be so energetic. Probably that is the sole reason to me, she reminds me of transformer. Quite unorthodox n unworthy, transformers can’t live. But she’s so full of life, one has to look down before going to her. Though never such a feeling had come to me since the day I know myself that I’m a boring guy or not so hilarious. Accompanying her on a chatting visit can make you left alone in deep dug turmoil. At the end of the day, you may leave gasping for fresh air with an impeccable imprint on your heart, how a person can talk such serious things under the most hilarious moods. No one can do that, but she did it.
THAT IS TRANSFORMER FOR ME….

Thursday, February 21, 2008

leaping free !!

finally after being under a tremendous hell of pressure to perform well, i will be set free for two days..yups, i'm leaving for my home at amritsar..nothing like it, probably as far as my memory goes, i was never excited to such an extent in last 4 years of my grad.

no such jam packed roads, no such hullaballo in every day things, no haphazard works to do, just at home. it means a lot to me...

bye bye bye...wiill be back with some new hopes to fulfill...take care

leaping free !!

finally after being under a tremendous hell of pressure to perform well, i will be set free for two days..yups, i'm leaving for my home at amritsar..nothing like it, probably as far as my memory goes, i was never excited to such an extent in last 4 years of my grad.

no such jam packed roads, no such hullaballo in every day things, no haphazard works to do, just at home. it means a lot to me...

bye bye bye...wiill be back with some new hopes to fulfill...take care

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

one more happy wala b'day !!!

Rather life’s getting smoother with every passing moment. With no as such bumps in my life, not any evident challenge to confront life is just another roller coaster ride for me. Pta nahi kyun, but it sometimes made me felt guilty. I really do not know, what to expect from life. I wish I could have some more nuts to plan it as per my wishes. Though I always tried to do the things at par to the best known capabilities of mine, yet I never kept in mind the goal for which I had been frantically laborious. Still after thwarted in my attempts, I had never been left with disgusted thoughts. all I can do is karma, rest is always predestined.

This always keeps my feet on ground, yet roaring high with even my minutest successes. There’s been so much more to cheer about in this grief stricken world. Expectations always let you down when one fails to reach one’s goal, but being the only motive driven force, no one can defy its impact upon our lives. That’s the only feverish difference between living and existing. I really thank god, I still have many expectations riding upon my shoulders that keeps me moving in this cut-throat competitive corporate world.

Being a guy having 21 years experience packed in my heart, I’m still under utter confusion. I still have not adopted or rather being more frank, haven’t found out my way of living. Being a vigorous studious guy to the euphoric party maniac, I have tried everything for last so many years. Nonetheless I firmly believe in keep trying, let fate decide what i deserve. My birthday, ummmm, still better reminds me how I’ve changing in the past years and visualizing the patterns I’m expecting to follow in the coming years. I’m charging my mobile, expecting to be wished from so many loved ones. I still want to thank every one, who can still spare a precious minute just to wish me good luck on my birthday. Though some may actually mean it, but it means a lot to me. Those two words “thank u” can not describe what I actually want to reply. All I wanna say is:

I WILL BE THERE FOR YOU AT EVERY MOMENT,
HOW SO EVER WINDY MAY BE THE STORMS,
WEIRDEST MAY BE THE TIMES,
UGLIEST MAY BE THE FACES,
GLOOMY MAY BE THE NIGHTS,
STINKY MAY BE THE ATTITUDES,

I WILL CARE FOR YOU ALWAYS !!

Monday, February 18, 2008

one more happy wala b'day !!!

Rather life’s getting smoother with every passing moment. With no as such bumps in my life, not any evident challenge to confront life is just another roller coaster ride for me. Pta nahi kyun, but it sometimes made me felt guilty. I really do not know, what to expect from life. I wish I could have some more nuts to plan it as per my wishes. Though I always tried to do the things at par to the best known capabilities of mine, yet I never kept in mind the goal for which I had been frantically laborious. Still after thwarted in my attempts, I had never been left with disgusted thoughts. all I can do is karma, rest is always predestined.

This always keeps my feet on ground, yet roaring high with even my minutest successes. There’s been so much more to cheer about in this grief stricken world. Expectations always let you down when one fails to reach one’s goal, but being the only motive driven force, no one can defy its impact upon our lives. That’s the only feverish difference between living and existing. I really thank god, I still have many expectations riding upon my shoulders that keeps me moving in this cut-throat competitive corporate world.

Being a guy having 21 years experience packed in my heart, I’m still under utter confusion. I still have not adopted or rather being more frank, haven’t found out my way of living. Being a vigorous studious guy to the euphoric party maniac, I have tried everything for last so many years. Nonetheless I firmly believe in keep trying, let fate decide what i deserve. My birthday, ummmm, still better reminds me how I’ve changing in the past years and visualizing the patterns I’m expecting to follow in the coming years. I’m charging my mobile, expecting to be wished from so many loved ones. I still want to thank every one, who can still spare a precious minute just to wish me good luck on my birthday. Though some may actually mean it, but it means a lot to me. Those two words “thank u” can not describe what I actually want to reply. All I wanna say is:

I WILL BE THERE FOR YOU AT EVERY MOMENT,
HOW SO EVER WINDY MAY BE THE STORMS,
WEIRDEST MAY BE THE TIMES,
UGLIEST MAY BE THE FACES,
GLOOMY MAY BE THE NIGHTS,
STINKY MAY BE THE ATTITUDES,

I WILL CARE FOR YOU ALWAYS !!

Thursday, February 14, 2008

happy valentine's day..

DEEP IN MY HEART I’M CONCEALING THINGS
THAT I’M LONGING TO SAY.
SCARED TO CONFESS WHAT I’M FEELING-
FRIGHTENED YOU’LL SLIP AWAY………….

I wish i really mean such beautiful words, but I do not. Don’t fell into the trench which have made a way into your heart. I have so many persons in my life, who have at one time or other, have helped me staying up even under the darkest of woods. Some have touched my life under the worst hit adverse hours and pulled me out without giving even the slightest of hints of sympathy. I owe a lot of gratitude to that every special person in my life, though days never carry such jewel times which are specially meant to open up your heart for your loved ones. still speaking out loud right from the every single core of my heart
h a p p y v a l e n t i n e

Swinging through the crests and troughs of my hopes, determined never to undermine my hard-earned skills of graduation. Frantically running for the goal, which never seemed so far, moreover, yet to be actually explored.

Though this day again reminds of those pretty times spent with kika, nothing seems sweeter than it. When daman talks about flying paper, swaying her charm all around me. Alas, I have lost her in this messy crowd of delhi before actually knowing that dazzling beauty. I wish I could spun back the times, I wish I could have gathered the pebbling guts to confess, “you are special to me”. Even the thoughts of approaching her made the adrenaline rush to my already bogged down mind. All world went numb, heart sinking down to the bottom at knees. It is rather much more simple to explain it in Punjabi’s slang.

Though I really don’t want to end up packing it with a dry note or god too shares the same thinking. I just got to know where she’s currently making days memorable for the guys. A person who can’t gather courage to speak up the mind when ur beloved one is at an arm’s length, you can’t expect much from such a cowardice when she’s miles away from him…

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

happy valentine's day..

DEEP IN MY HEART I’M CONCEALING THINGS
THAT I’M LONGING TO SAY.
SCARED TO CONFESS WHAT I’M FEELING-
FRIGHTENED YOU’LL SLIP AWAY………….

I wish i really mean such beautiful words, but I do not. Don’t fell into the trench which have made a way into your heart. I have so many persons in my life, who have at one time or other, have helped me staying up even under the darkest of woods. Some have touched my life under the worst hit adverse hours and pulled me out without giving even the slightest of hints of sympathy. I owe a lot of gratitude to that every special person in my life, though days never carry such jewel times which are specially meant to open up your heart for your loved ones. still speaking out loud right from the every single core of my heart
h a p p y v a l e n t i n e

Swinging through the crests and troughs of my hopes, determined never to undermine my hard-earned skills of graduation. Frantically running for the goal, which never seemed so far, moreover, yet to be actually explored.

Though this day again reminds of those pretty times spent with kika, nothing seems sweeter than it. When daman talks about flying paper, swaying her charm all around me. Alas, I have lost her in this messy crowd of delhi before actually knowing that dazzling beauty. I wish I could spun back the times, I wish I could have gathered the pebbling guts to confess, “you are special to me”. Even the thoughts of approaching her made the adrenaline rush to my already bogged down mind. All world went numb, heart sinking down to the bottom at knees. It is rather much more simple to explain it in Punjabi’s slang.

Though I really don’t want to end up packing it with a dry note or god too shares the same thinking. I just got to know where she’s currently making days memorable for the guys. A person who can’t gather courage to speak up the mind when ur beloved one is at an arm’s length, you can’t expect much from such a cowardice when she’s miles away from him…

dwindling hopes !!

time's once again has got outta shell with even more fierce faces of hard times. that was probably what was going into my mind yesterday while listening to those yelling ladies on radio n compressing my pillow as if to work out the principle of 4-stroke engine of a machine. such things are not meant for me, i do not deserve to be an employee of BSES, i've been picked from the crowd only for reliance energy. how can i let the pickers to run over my plans and thwarting my hopes with such uncanny discussions. i certainly don't deserve it.
though nothing seemed to be tolerant at that moment for me, i was feeling as if all the fresh fragrance in my room has been vacuumed.
but later i discussed it with my manager.being such a dignified person, he was yet so down to earth..ssshhhh, my boss is here, another a very polite human on this hatred land.let him explore outta this fallacious world..
byeeeeeee

dwindling hopes !!

time's once again has got outta shell with even more fierce faces of hard times. that was probably what was going into my mind yesterday while listening to those yelling ladies on radio n compressing my pillow as if to work out the principle of 4-stroke engine of a machine. such things are not meant for me, i do not deserve to be an employee of BSES, i've been picked from the crowd only for reliance energy. how can i let the pickers to run over my plans and thwarting my hopes with such uncanny discussions. i certainly don't deserve it.
though nothing seemed to be tolerant at that moment for me, i was feeling as if all the fresh fragrance in my room has been vacuumed.
but later i discussed it with my manager.being such a dignified person, he was yet so down to earth..ssshhhh, my boss is here, another a very polite human on this hatred land.let him explore outta this fallacious world..
byeeeeeee

Thursday, February 7, 2008

real hitherto...

The bitter realities came back dashing all my hopes into the ground. Those were really the days of my life, when I used to boast about being placed in the top notch companies: Accenture n Reliance Energy. Never did even my sleepish nightmares contain such the horror full tacts, which I’m facing these days. All my well-wishers tried hard to persuade me to get into the software. I turn down everyone’s requests n advices, making so many plans for my future in core electrical firms.
Now, it has turned into a darkest nightmare of my life. I’m gonna be employed in BSES, not the gorgeous Reliance Energy. It really felt so sinking deep into my heart, but I’m hapless now. Simply irresistible are my feelings for these bullish people who came for campus recruitment in our college. Barking all day about reliance energy, those craps are putting me into the minnows of their firms. Nothing can explain the dilemma I’m entangled in, I wish somebody could have come to rescue me outta this mud-slinging corporate sector. Such were regretful moments I was slipping into.
I have seen the persons working in the BSES. They contain a hell lot of knowledge, n no one can even think of the pay scales at which those are creeping here in delhi. A mere 2.5 lacs is running the power all across the south delhi. If that guy slip into bed one day, I bet south delhi would come to its feet, everything would be jammed except the frantic calls coming to his cell phone. Nobody gets what he deserves in BSES, dats probably my first impression for this ill-fated firm. Hell, how can I work above that guy, who knows so many folds more than me. Such is the varsity in his knowledge, I just feel shamed upon being called sir by him. I wish I could help out such poor souls outta this dreaded corporate sector. But god has given me so less n thoughts are so many. All I can do is just keep looking at all such events with both my mind n heart numb over such deeds. All I can do is just wait n watch the god’s will. All in my hands is to keep working hard, learning till my brain works for me. No problem has ever existed on this earth without its crack. All you need is to keep your fingers crossed n minds serving at your service relentlessly. Koi naa, my day will come one day, this one punch line has kept me driving for last almost two decades and I hope it will never fade away like any 1000 watt bulb which gets fused upon being tumbled by some peaky voltage waveform.

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

real hitherto...

The bitter realities came back dashing all my hopes into the ground. Those were really the days of my life, when I used to boast about being placed in the top notch companies: Accenture n Reliance Energy. Never did even my sleepish nightmares contain such the horror full tacts, which I’m facing these days. All my well-wishers tried hard to persuade me to get into the software. I turn down everyone’s requests n advices, making so many plans for my future in core electrical firms.
Now, it has turned into a darkest nightmare of my life. I’m gonna be employed in BSES, not the gorgeous Reliance Energy. It really felt so sinking deep into my heart, but I’m hapless now. Simply irresistible are my feelings for these bullish people who came for campus recruitment in our college. Barking all day about reliance energy, those craps are putting me into the minnows of their firms. Nothing can explain the dilemma I’m entangled in, I wish somebody could have come to rescue me outta this mud-slinging corporate sector. Such were regretful moments I was slipping into.
I have seen the persons working in the BSES. They contain a hell lot of knowledge, n no one can even think of the pay scales at which those are creeping here in delhi. A mere 2.5 lacs is running the power all across the south delhi. If that guy slip into bed one day, I bet south delhi would come to its feet, everything would be jammed except the frantic calls coming to his cell phone. Nobody gets what he deserves in BSES, dats probably my first impression for this ill-fated firm. Hell, how can I work above that guy, who knows so many folds more than me. Such is the varsity in his knowledge, I just feel shamed upon being called sir by him. I wish I could help out such poor souls outta this dreaded corporate sector. But god has given me so less n thoughts are so many. All I can do is just keep looking at all such events with both my mind n heart numb over such deeds. All I can do is just wait n watch the god’s will. All in my hands is to keep working hard, learning till my brain works for me. No problem has ever existed on this earth without its crack. All you need is to keep your fingers crossed n minds serving at your service relentlessly. Koi naa, my day will come one day, this one punch line has kept me driving for last almost two decades and I hope it will never fade away like any 1000 watt bulb which gets fused upon being tumbled by some peaky voltage waveform.

impeccable raids...

Probably time has again tumbled upon to brighten up my fate. Finally adrenalin jittered down my feets, we got the access to internet.. some may raise eye brows over such an impeccable dominance of net in my life, but yet it duly deserve such recognition in my life..

So lets, rope up the series once again right from the thread where I left it in the college. I’m currently working in reliance energy, staying up at one of the most lavish buildups in south delhi i.e in geetanjali enclave. Though this name brings back the old reminiscences of G during college days. Ufff, those were really the sunniest days, my life had ever romped upon.
So lets start with the today, a bright fine decent Tuesday. Never give up the resurrected routine of visiting mandir on Tuesdays. Though the fruit came immediately after I came out of mandir. I called CS, hopefully a new entry into my priority list, which really acts being a guitarist to the strings of my heart. But she didn’t pick, later got the back call. Ettiquettly I let her finish calling me, then I call her back. The next 30 minutes flied over me with a mach speed. After I hang up, I have talked to her for 28 minutes. I won’t mind spending such 28 minutes daily, these times r placed peaky over all the rest 23 hours and 32 minutes of a day. Talking about the internship, giggling over the chilling January mornings, babbling over the future, simply irresistible for me. Later I shared it with arun, probably the guy who knows more than any one else about my likes over the drooling charms of CS.
Days are never so joyful, no such jolts to put you back in the porch of your garden. I’m flying high, spirits dancing ever higher. Regarding training, today got some clearance over the concepts of SAP. Reliance energy has really got some commendable softwares installed, unarguably the best among the leaders. Though yesterday was simply awesome. I went for raids or enforcement in islam colony. Lemme explain the visuals. A road fuming with the vehicles running over it, suddenly a delhi police n a CISF van came to a halt. Drumming sounds of feet kissing the road each time, everybody staring over the feet coming closer with each second. Then, our car braked in the middle of the road. The road was already lonely, just the police cops scathing away everybody there. A knock came over a corroded wooden door, no electricity meter, all the bulbs glowing to its full wattage. Rest I won’t explain though I wasn’t feeling at ease, staring at those helpless faces of persons, those who were lavishly residing there, paying no bills over this electricity over which people going gaga over the power deficiency.
Time is getting 11pm now, already fighting for the whole day with cold n cough, even now battle is going on. Though feeling much better now, hopefully will post this blog tomorrow morning in the 33KV substation at vasant kunj. Byeeeeeeeee, good night..

unbeatable spirits ...

Aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh, getting back to the home nothing feels more relaxed than this. After a whole day of sheer perplexed emotions, I’m actually feeling a bit low in this a bit shallow think tank of this world. A dilemma had stuck my mind: money is getting the far above excellence place of dignity??? that seems even more shocking out of hell when the person who’s actually framing it, is even more intelligent to learn the ways outta this materialistic world.

koi naa, I’ve yet to see much more in this dodgy world. lemme tell you even more about some brighter incidents. it feels really content when you find out someone still admires you for some of your acts of defiance years ago. daman told me about eminent days, when I had given a seminar on armature windings, that roar of claps can always make my ears got numb. I had spent a handsome amount of time grasping every bit of it from net, practiced the diagrams until my hands went shaky. it really makes me gliding high in sky looking down on those old gold reminiscences. then another scar came to his(daman) mind, once I had confessed a guilt which I had never committed. head of mechanical engineering was teaching us thermodynamics. he asked if everybody has understood, one person from behind nodded no timidly. sir announced he wud not be teaching unless that guy stood n pledge regret over this. I did that just to make sure nobody intervenes in my studies. well, even now I think, yeh toh such mein zyada ho gaya naa.. even me too admire this act of complete boldness of mine, I was really very determined.

some pennies from that old crest of gold coins is still laying under my veins. I still have those guts under my belt, have got even deeper scars too upon my fleshy mind. pta nahi, which way life gonna take me, but I’ll moving with the downstream. I had seen it hanging at my cousin’s home:

EARTH HAS GIVEN EVERYONE ENOUGH TO FULFILL ONE’S NEED
BUT NOT EVERYONE’S GREED !!!

the techy groove !!!

life has got into the fifth gear, with me taken aback to the back seat, just gazing with a hell lot of questions fuming with every passing minute. After beaten up by the confusions on the way, when I luckily reached office at around 10.30am, cab was ready to leave for the fault location at gurgaon. I insisted the technical engineer to plz take me along to grasp some folds of techy stuff. he tried to persuade me wid every possible intuitions he could thought of LIKE :
ITS AN LT(low tension) FAULT, TAKE MORE TIME..
IT MAY TAKE ARND 7-8 HOURS THERE.
IT MAY BE A SHORT CIRCUIT FAULT…blab bla bla…
But I was rather more bemused by just the thought of putting my mind under more stress for such stuff. believe me, I COULD HAVE TURNED DOWN THE OFFER OF ‘CS’ OUT FOR A DATE AT THAT TIME.
So after we kick start our journey, every bit of it enthralled me to the highest. “gurgava” dats how everybody pronounces it. Yep, it was an LT fault, cable had given a hard time a day before to the local electricians. So this time, all eyes were set upon us to do some magic to locate faults. Started off with the ultrasonic method to find the loophole in the cable near the joint box. Well, its always very very hard nut to crack to accurately discover the actual wizard. Koi naa, I have leapt through so many methods of finding it. Lets short circuit all the phases n check it with neutral at every point, hmmmmmmmmmm still no clue where it’s hiding. Its already 5pm in evening. Clamp the cable to apply the lamp method to confirm the type of fault. Yups, it was a phase to phase fault. Gosh, its getting typical n tired too. Keep staring at every check point, yet no clue. We had almost dug arnd 10 meters of cable with just one thought running in mind, WE’LL GET THE BREAKDOWN AT THIS POINT.
Aaaaaahhhh, my body is cramped. Yea cab is on its way. Eyes were never anxious n heart was never brimmed with such a longing. I could have never awaited looking for my gf for such a long time. On the way back, eyes were dancing as if I was boozed off. Highways came n passed by in an instant and I was back to home. Still I can say I learnt a lot, dug upto the sea to the concepts of cables.
AT THE END OF THE DAY, ALL THAT MATTERS IS WHAT YOU HAVE LEARNT BUT NOT WHAT YOU HAVE ACHIEVED YANKING AT OTHERS…!!!

impeccable raids...

Probably time has again tumbled upon to brighten up my fate. Finally adrenalin jittered down my feets, we got the access to internet.. some may raise eye brows over such an impeccable dominance of net in my life, but yet it duly deserve such recognition in my life..

So lets, rope up the series once again right from the thread where I left it in the college. I’m currently working in reliance energy, staying up at one of the most lavish buildups in south delhi i.e in geetanjali enclave. Though this name brings back the old reminiscences of G during college days. Ufff, those were really the sunniest days, my life had ever romped upon.
So lets start with the today, a bright fine decent Tuesday. Never give up the resurrected routine of visiting mandir on Tuesdays. Though the fruit came immediately after I came out of mandir. I called CS, hopefully a new entry into my priority list, which really acts being a guitarist to the strings of my heart. But she didn’t pick, later got the back call. Ettiquettly I let her finish calling me, then I call her back. The next 30 minutes flied over me with a mach speed. After I hang up, I have talked to her for 28 minutes. I won’t mind spending such 28 minutes daily, these times r placed peaky over all the rest 23 hours and 32 minutes of a day. Talking about the internship, giggling over the chilling January mornings, babbling over the future, simply irresistible for me. Later I shared it with arun, probably the guy who knows more than any one else about my likes over the drooling charms of CS.
Days are never so joyful, no such jolts to put you back in the porch of your garden. I’m flying high, spirits dancing ever higher. Regarding training, today got some clearance over the concepts of SAP. Reliance energy has really got some commendable softwares installed, unarguably the best among the leaders. Though yesterday was simply awesome. I went for raids or enforcement in islam colony. Lemme explain the visuals. A road fuming with the vehicles running over it, suddenly a delhi police n a CISF van came to a halt. Drumming sounds of feet kissing the road each time, everybody staring over the feet coming closer with each second. Then, our car braked in the middle of the road. The road was already lonely, just the police cops scathing away everybody there. A knock came over a corroded wooden door, no electricity meter, all the bulbs glowing to its full wattage. Rest I won’t explain though I wasn’t feeling at ease, staring at those helpless faces of persons, those who were lavishly residing there, paying no bills over this electricity over which people going gaga over the power deficiency.
Time is getting 11pm now, already fighting for the whole day with cold n cough, even now battle is going on. Though feeling much better now, hopefully will post this blog tomorrow morning in the 33KV substation at vasant kunj. Byeeeeeeeee, good night..

unbeatable spirits ...

Aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh, getting back to the home nothing feels more relaxed than this. After a whole day of sheer perplexed emotions, I’m actually feeling a bit low in this a bit shallow think tank of this world. A dilemma had stuck my mind: money is getting the far above excellence place of dignity??? that seems even more shocking out of hell when the person who’s actually framing it, is even more intelligent to learn the ways outta this materialistic world.

koi naa, I’ve yet to see much more in this dodgy world. lemme tell you even more about some brighter incidents. it feels really content when you find out someone still admires you for some of your acts of defiance years ago. daman told me about eminent days, when I had given a seminar on armature windings, that roar of claps can always make my ears got numb. I had spent a handsome amount of time grasping every bit of it from net, practiced the diagrams until my hands went shaky. it really makes me gliding high in sky looking down on those old gold reminiscences. then another scar came to his(daman) mind, once I had confessed a guilt which I had never committed. head of mechanical engineering was teaching us thermodynamics. he asked if everybody has understood, one person from behind nodded no timidly. sir announced he wud not be teaching unless that guy stood n pledge regret over this. I did that just to make sure nobody intervenes in my studies. well, even now I think, yeh toh such mein zyada ho gaya naa.. even me too admire this act of complete boldness of mine, I was really very determined.

some pennies from that old crest of gold coins is still laying under my veins. I still have those guts under my belt, have got even deeper scars too upon my fleshy mind. pta nahi, which way life gonna take me, but I’ll moving with the downstream. I had seen it hanging at my cousin’s home:

EARTH HAS GIVEN EVERYONE ENOUGH TO FULFILL ONE’S NEED
BUT NOT EVERYONE’S GREED !!!

the techy groove !!!

life has got into the fifth gear, with me taken aback to the back seat, just gazing with a hell lot of questions fuming with every passing minute. After beaten up by the confusions on the way, when I luckily reached office at around 10.30am, cab was ready to leave for the fault location at gurgaon. I insisted the technical engineer to plz take me along to grasp some folds of techy stuff. he tried to persuade me wid every possible intuitions he could thought of LIKE :
ITS AN LT(low tension) FAULT, TAKE MORE TIME..
IT MAY TAKE ARND 7-8 HOURS THERE.
IT MAY BE A SHORT CIRCUIT FAULT…blab bla bla…
But I was rather more bemused by just the thought of putting my mind under more stress for such stuff. believe me, I COULD HAVE TURNED DOWN THE OFFER OF ‘CS’ OUT FOR A DATE AT THAT TIME.
So after we kick start our journey, every bit of it enthralled me to the highest. “gurgava” dats how everybody pronounces it. Yep, it was an LT fault, cable had given a hard time a day before to the local electricians. So this time, all eyes were set upon us to do some magic to locate faults. Started off with the ultrasonic method to find the loophole in the cable near the joint box. Well, its always very very hard nut to crack to accurately discover the actual wizard. Koi naa, I have leapt through so many methods of finding it. Lets short circuit all the phases n check it with neutral at every point, hmmmmmmmmmm still no clue where it’s hiding. Its already 5pm in evening. Clamp the cable to apply the lamp method to confirm the type of fault. Yups, it was a phase to phase fault. Gosh, its getting typical n tired too. Keep staring at every check point, yet no clue. We had almost dug arnd 10 meters of cable with just one thought running in mind, WE’LL GET THE BREAKDOWN AT THIS POINT.
Aaaaaahhhh, my body is cramped. Yea cab is on its way. Eyes were never anxious n heart was never brimmed with such a longing. I could have never awaited looking for my gf for such a long time. On the way back, eyes were dancing as if I was boozed off. Highways came n passed by in an instant and I was back to home. Still I can say I learnt a lot, dug upto the sea to the concepts of cables.
AT THE END OF THE DAY, ALL THAT MATTERS IS WHAT YOU HAVE LEARNT BUT NOT WHAT YOU HAVE ACHIEVED YANKING AT OTHERS…!!!

Friday, February 1, 2008

brighter dayzz ahead !!

Huh, I’m not pretty sure about what to scribble in this ugly face of my note pad. it has already clocked past 2am. I’m standing high, visualizing my future consolidating my present.

Though days are never as you wish them to be. I always wish to have some giggles under the sulky sun with my partner. Alas, that never happened to me. During the past years, I have seen so many birds chirping around the some conspicuous corners in thapar n even more is the astounding number one can watch in delhi. life’s never been so bloomy for me, but I wud never complain coz it had never been gloomy as well though. Putting my strenuous efforts in every block of my goal, I have been left with little time to think about all these sensuous matters. making it even more bitter for me, troubles raising from the mole hills, took me to the mountains of imprisonment.

for the last days, it felt as if that gloomy dusk has met with its end. but troubles cripples back when you realize its getting glee all around. I can’t sort out my ways. BSES, the name speaks for its notorious reputation in delhi. not within my circle of nightmares, such cud have come that I would be working for BSES, not reliance energy. this is utter negligence on behalf of placement officer. before putting the cover over the lid of my eyes, just one thought came to my mind. “ life’s gonna be smooth once I’ll be working in RELIANCE ENERGY”. it is height of murky dilemma for me. I had to compromise between the two most eminent aspects of my carrier, rather my whole life. I wish god could have given me a better place to choose outta this, but I will face it with the same vigour that has sailed me through so many arduous troubles in past. it stuck to my mind when I read it in the newspaper today:

I WASN’T BORN A RICH MAN, I AIN’T GOT NO PEDIGREE.
THE SWEAT ON THIS OLD COLLAR,
DATS MY Ph.D

this is really awesome. I would prefer to have such a vast pool under my belt when switching the firms. you can’t get it all done sitting in a sub-station, seeking for faults using ultrasonic vibrations. indeed bullyish to think on my part, I want to pursue in the field. exposure in the field would polish my with the galvanized paint of knowledge, which will remain as such no matter howsoever feverish are the rains. its never gonna be easy, but let it know that aseem is too tough to be conquered…good night !!

brighter dayzz ahead !!

Huh, I’m not pretty sure about what to scribble in this ugly face of my note pad. it has already clocked past 2am. I’m standing high, visualizing my future consolidating my present.

Though days are never as you wish them to be. I always wish to have some giggles under the sulky sun with my partner. Alas, that never happened to me. During the past years, I have seen so many birds chirping around the some conspicuous corners in thapar n even more is the astounding number one can watch in delhi. life’s never been so bloomy for me, but I wud never complain coz it had never been gloomy as well though. Putting my strenuous efforts in every block of my goal, I have been left with little time to think about all these sensuous matters. making it even more bitter for me, troubles raising from the mole hills, took me to the mountains of imprisonment.

for the last days, it felt as if that gloomy dusk has met with its end. but troubles cripples back when you realize its getting glee all around. I can’t sort out my ways. BSES, the name speaks for its notorious reputation in delhi. not within my circle of nightmares, such cud have come that I would be working for BSES, not reliance energy. this is utter negligence on behalf of placement officer. before putting the cover over the lid of my eyes, just one thought came to my mind. “ life’s gonna be smooth once I’ll be working in RELIANCE ENERGY”. it is height of murky dilemma for me. I had to compromise between the two most eminent aspects of my carrier, rather my whole life. I wish god could have given me a better place to choose outta this, but I will face it with the same vigour that has sailed me through so many arduous troubles in past. it stuck to my mind when I read it in the newspaper today:

I WASN’T BORN A RICH MAN, I AIN’T GOT NO PEDIGREE.
THE SWEAT ON THIS OLD COLLAR,
DATS MY Ph.D

this is really awesome. I would prefer to have such a vast pool under my belt when switching the firms. you can’t get it all done sitting in a sub-station, seeking for faults using ultrasonic vibrations. indeed bullyish to think on my part, I want to pursue in the field. exposure in the field would polish my with the galvanized paint of knowledge, which will remain as such no matter howsoever feverish are the rains. its never gonna be easy, but let it know that aseem is too tough to be conquered…good night !!