And i am once again happy..

Life is indeed beautiful.

After following it for years, with all my grit and determination, sometimes I got it but mostly losing it when required the most. I am describing my encounters with the every one's lavish fantasy, every one's life longing: HAPPINESS :)

This word carries the most beautiful feelings etched in my heart too, just like every one's heart. But these feelings are volatile; the sublimate feelings are the most hard fought to posses. I had many runs for it, galloping haplessly on a pavement, sniffing every step of this trodden path, yet lost it when I was on the verge of getting it.

This time again, running blind-folded for this splendid thing, I was on the verge of giving up. Unlike my last attempts, I was drained to the bottom. Hands slowly and swiftly dropping the gears of my passion, mind getting sootheness in the emptiness only, lying with eyes closed possessing no more dreams, world seemed to be still with me. A subtle glow was seen by my eyes, tired of seeing the faded happiness every time. It was happiness, again knocking at my weak and brittle door, yes, it was indeed happiness.

And I am once again happy..

Happy Holi :)

I remember vividly my last holi at home. It was spectacular as always, free from the pinching sky of college schedule into the endless world of my imagination, into the new world where phobia for silence persists, into a new gigantic term of corporate world; it felt as if i had explored a hidden treasure a year ago.

That newly-found treasure is lost !!

Life has become inconsistent, galloping in steps after the long tiring unexpected halts. My plans keep changing as sun keeps changing the intensity of its rays with time. The growing agony inside me needs a vent out. Hopes were never dwindling with such pessimism nor me. My priorities, expectations keep changing like a bullish run in sensex. Come new ones, older ones are drained in the dejected lane. A filthy feeling of being shrewd to myself craves in every time.

But no, i shall live it myself. I shall live it for my loved ones, for those who share my happiness, more for those who endure my pains with me. Setting aside the speculations running in my mind, i shall decide the course and will never deter my expectations.

Soon.. Very soon..

After being eloped for a sumptuous time, i shall be consistent in writing it once again.

I shall write it once again with the same rejuvenated vigour,

I shall write for me, only for me, just for me..

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