Last time I penned down the above three lines. Mind was fuming haplessly for no reasons. Life was tough though effortless. But those efforts were not abler enough to steer a cheer even. Pondering over the virtual myth, frantically chasing the dreams which would never be mine in destiny yet I gave it a try.
Just completed another novel, “that thing called LOVE”, few lines are still rendering over my mind.
IF YOU REALLY LOVE SOMEBODY, LET THEM GO.
IF THEY RETURN, THEY WERE ALWAYS YOURS
IF THEY DON’T, THEY NEVER WERE!!
I was taken a back with the sublime influence of these words. How could a poet write it so beautifully, yet everyone can relate it so easily. Feelings of strong disgust were undeniable at those times, whole world seem staring at me with piercing thoughts. Even the soul couldn’t retain the composure, every bit falls out of place. It was horrendous; one thought kept bickering in my heart. Why am I taking things to its worst end?
Yes, I quit it there only. It was not just one bit, a dilemma bulging out everyday in my mellow heart. Leaving behind such chilled memories which had churned me upside down, had made me trembled voraciously, I remorse my feelings yet none is to be accused but myself.
I am not sure what else to write to continue this spontaneity, which I doubt for the ardent readers. This post stands nowhere, yet a little closer to my own heart atleast. Two weeks full of mixed emotions playing with my heart, feelings trying to bulge yet I suppress those hard. Feeling tougher and less sensitive, yet this is life. Recently I read the movie review of “rab ne bana diti jodi”, a movie where the flamboyant hero is so inexpressive. He has to keep his feelings into his heart as if packed in a tiffin box. He rides a simple scooter and feels imprudent in folding the sleeves of his shirt. An undeterred smile unlike a wicked grin could say it all. That sincerety in his smile while taking hold of pepsi was truly hard to ignore. But one keeps chasing the dreams haplessly diluting his happiness into the sour times, expecting the unexpected, and trying to take possession of what was never yours.
Forgotten are those words or the sayings of history, life makes you learn the ruthless ways, moulding those sincere feelings into the insensitive strings of curbed emotions.
Wah shakl pighli to har shay mein dhal gayee jaise
Ajeeb baat hui hai usse bhulane mein….
